Every so often I have the urge to just live to leave my familiar territory. * I have known that a big reason for that is that I feel like I’m not even close to a main character in my own story. I don’t speak as much, because people don’t listen to me. I dont make plans or commitments bc it us always subject to being forgotten or pushed aside. Even down times with the bf or gf is always subject to being interrrupted

In most respects, i’m not bothered by being second third fourth priority. However, when it’s the norm, and there’s no recognition or room to address it, living alone and seperating from my mates just makes more sense. ( I don’t need the world to revolve around me, but living alone would cut out any of the push pull and being subject to others’ disregard and inattention.)

* Yes, I realize I probably don’t make enough to move out unless I leave California. I also need to be able to keep my 3d printer.

Great job, California…. (I’m being sarcastic)
https://www.techdirt.com/2023/09/25/with-basically-zero-press-coverage-at-all-california-assembly-passes-its-own-version-of-fosta/

This weekend is a lesson about detachment. Im now adding Discord to the list of social platforms that I don’t fuck with .

A little bit of love for the high school mascot:
https://youtu.be/sBzrzS1Ag_g

In life, I try and not get into trying to take charge on things (or control things) if it’s not my place to control. Today represents such a mindfuck that I try and avoid when possible