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  • Work partner and I went into a meeting for intent to collaborate. However, it was clear that this person isnt going to work with us. So, I guess I roll out the plans I had held in the wings.

    *sigh* I just want to be a beonobo and play on m drum all day.

    VixenBlu posted an update 2 days, 6 hours ago

  • Watching the show tonight. First time I have been able to catch it live (rather than doing a replay). Honestly hearing the show and trying to explore the extent of my memory drain…. it makes me realize just how much time has passed. My 30s are just flying by

    VixenBlu posted an update 3 weeks, 4 days ago

  • @dragonsteelxxx Ah, you got in pretty early (C4S is one of the longest running adult clips sites that I know of). and yeah, I think I work better off of doing non solo stuff in front of the camera.

    Id feel really strange saying anything related to “how old is too old” for stuff like this. People in my life (lovers, intimate friends) have been all over the age brackets. I can say my L.A. satyr (a lover of mine who is over 60) has not stopped being sexy and a strong playmate for people like me. I know personal comfort is always key when it comes to making content but, dont sell yourself short. on that age thing.

    VixenBlu posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 4 days ago

  • Any day that my most edgy Clips4Sale video is still able to stay online is a good day. (…and believe me, the video is not all that controversial) Since I have not been able to make new content and re-establish my sex work life, I cant say I have the energy to know where my next clip store will be.

    VixenBlu posted an update 1 month ago

    • Vixen,….I ThINk???? i might ‘ve had a Clips account about 14 yrs’ ago,.. maybe I might think about Re’Creating a new account on there again, but I’m in the same boat as you, No material/content to add, No *partner {female) to work w/, – and these days (at ’55’) “I” may just be too O000ooooooLLLllldd, Tired, Fat, Ugly & unwantedly useless to anyone anymore. YOUR still doin’ HOT and sexxxy though. i even have an only fans account as well, yet nothing added there Ither, ironically…

    • @dragonsteelxxx Ah, you got in pretty early (C4S is one of the longest running adult clips sites that I know of). and yeah, I think I work better off of doing non solo stuff in front of the camera.

      Id feel really strange saying anything related to “how old is too old” for stuff like this. People in my life (lovers, intimate friends) have been all over the age brackets. I can say my L.A. satyr (a lover of mine who is over 60) has not stopped being sexy and a strong playmate for people like me. I know personal comfort is always key when it comes to making content but, dont sell yourself short. on that age thing.

  • @dragonsteelxxx Yeah. I dont know if I was that big on going out to nightclubs. I mean to say, I wasnt the type to go on the regular but I definitely had alot of options on things I could do if I wanted to go dancing, or socialize with adult fun….and of course the conventions.

    When C19 came along, I was already in a very …. interesting headspace and part of that headspace meant I was socializing even less as I weathered what changes were going on. Also had some financial things that made all of my artistic and costuming life suddenly “too luxurious to afford and keep up”.

    I was on a path of furthering my self care and that meant turning down/declining more things out of my philosophy of not being afraid to say no. Im not a people pleaser if my own self worth and care is on the line. To me, I found myself mentally better off than most other people. I dont really have much FOMO in my life and everything just seemed pointless. Priorities seemed pointless when thousands of people were succumbing to this.

    I can do fine on my own and I am a very spoiled person, having both my boyfriend and girlfriend now living with me. Self contained fun.

    VixenBlu posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago

  • Morning has come and its a new week. Sometimes I feel like Im spinning many plates but its gonna be that way for a while. Need to find my flow in new ways and letting the energies flow.

  • Things are shifting. I have movement in my working life and may have found a foothold (so to speak). Transportation i being handled. Now, if only I could solve those BBW Corset Problems.

  • There is a new path I must forge. I am reminded of the tale of Icarus. He wanted to touch the sun, but got too close. I must figure out where that line is with the journey I must take. Gonna be a loner on this project as well since it is dealing with IP, and because…. well… I seem to be a loner these days.

  • Trying to do my research (better than “fuck around and find out”). We have to try our best.
    Sidenote: In getting close to the gods for one mask project, maybe I can figure out how to Build a Better Strap On.

    VixenBlu posted an update 3 months ago

  • Bless the change in weather. It has been one cruel cruel summer (but more than just the heat). Amazing how things can feel like they are stagnant….and at the same time, some stuff is moving entirely too fast.

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